Marginal success of a day. Started alright – made an appointment I needed to get done for tomorrow. Sort of petered out after that, though I did get all our old notebooks unpacked and put away. Six whole boxes full! Found lots of good stuff, too, from times gone by. Did a little Russian practice this afternoon after finding my old text book and work books. I like Russian.
Tomorrow I’m hoping I’m feeling plucky enough to get out to the Bay and get most (or all?) of the shopping I need to finish so I can mail out the two packages I need to. To remember for next year: if at all possible, do Christmas shopping for out-of-town family before finals. Two weeks between finals and Christmas is just cutting it a little close for thinking of what I need to do, doing it, wrapping it, and shipping it without having to spend 100 bucks on shipping. But I guess that’s what Christmas is all about.
This year I’m especially worried about spending too much and not putting enough thought into what I’m doing. Normally I put a lot of effort into Christmas stuff, but normally I’m feeling way, way more prepared than I am now. I usually really love Christmas shopping and Christmas time but I’m feeling really deflated this year. Burned out, I guess. Burned out and uninspired. Like I don’t have my shit together enough to bring anyone joy, and if you’re not going to bring any joy on Christmas, isn’t it just going through a series of half-assed expensive motions?
Perhaps I’ll feel better when I wake up. My mornings have been pretty productive, and my evenings fairly crashed. Count this one crashed.